I know this is a sad post talking about the end of lives and all but its been on my heart today. I wish i had the words to comfort my friend in this time of need but all i've been able to tell her is to remember that she is no longer hurting and that she is with both her love (her late husband) and her lord. And i know if it were me that would be the only reminder that would even come close to making me feel better.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Today one of my closests friends lost her grandmother. It was expected since she suffered a massive stroke on monday and has slowly declined from that point. However, even the knowledge that the end is approaching does not make the loss any easier. It really just made me think about how truly Lucky I am to have both of my grandparents (on my mom's side) and my grandmother (on my dad's side) still with us. I know I have never been close to my grandmother on my dad's side and there are many reasons for that but It's still a blessing that she is still with us and even though she doesn't know us anymore I am in hopes that Blaine and I will be able to go and visit her before anything happens. My grandparents on my mom's side are two of the most influential people I've had in my life and the thought of losing them any time soon absolutely tears me up. I know that I am blessed to still have both of them in good health and good spirits and i pray that that remains the same for many more years to come because I want my children to have the opportunity to meet those amazing people and have their lives touch the way my life has been. And now that I'm married I have another set of grandparents from Blaine's mothers side and they have been such a blessing to our lives. They are two of the nicest people I know and I am so glad that I can call them family. But I guess the biggest thing that really got me is the fact that we never know when our time or our families time will be. Especially when it comes to our grandparents. Her grandmother was healthy and had no signs of possible stroke (just like most people) and then all the sudden its time to say their goodbyes. It makes me stop and think about how many things I choose to do instead of going and visiting both of grandparents as often as we possibly can. So its going to be a new goal for us to go and visit both of our grandparents as often as possible because we never know when our lives will change and when the end may come for any of us.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Last nights sermon at church really got me to thinking about how i've been living my life in the aspect of my career. The sermon was all about living life as the journey and not always waiting for something to happen before you are satisfied. And not being scared to go for something just because of the unknown. Well it got me to thinking about how badly i want to teach science. I set out to be a highschool science teacher 5 years ago and there have been all kinds of hoops, and blocks in my path but ive decided that i can still do it. So I am gathering everything i need to apply for alternative certification. I am nervous no i'll admit it I'm flat out scared. I'm scared to fail, i'm scared they'll say no and my dream and all my hard work will be for nothing, i'm scared that maybe it'll happen and then i wont get a job, or if i do get a job then i wont be good at it or wont enjoy it as much as i think i will.... there are so many fears and what ifs running through my head but i know that its something that god has put in my heart to do and I'm going to do everything I possibly can to get there. I dont want to teach just because I like teaching and I like learning but I want to teach because I want the opportunity to make a difference in someones life the way no one but a teacher can. If it weren't for the teachers I had in my life while i was growing up i would not be the person i am today. I had teachers who truly cared and who believed that i could and would succeed even though i grew up in an area where many could care less. If had not been for those teachers who knows what my life would be like now and i want the opportunity to make that same impact in a young persons life. I know in my heart that to teach is a calling God has for me so im gonna stop letting my fear hold me back and I'm gonna go for it. Blaine is so supportive and is excited to see what happens right along with me. So many prayers in the months to come are very much appreciated and i will keep you all updated on what happens.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
I love relaxing weekends with my Hubby! We spent the weekend with friends going swimming and enjoying the summer weather! And then lots of relaxing just the two of us with our very entertaining kitty! I can't believe how much life has changed in the last few months but it has been an amazing journey and I am so excited to see what the rest of this year has in store for us. Here are some pictures of how we enjoy spending our weekends together.
Bell and I enjoying some cuddle time... we had to take her to the vet so she was a little sleepy after her shots and getting blood drawn to test for Feline Leukemia which she test negative for YAY!!
She loves her cube! She rolls it all over the place when she gets really excited! She even tries to jump out the top when you walk by it! LOL! She's a little crazy sometimes!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Happy fourth of July everyone! We have big plans and I am so excited! First we have church... its the start of our big at the movie series that we have been volunteering for and helping get ready so we are so excited to see it all come together! Then its a relaxing afternoon of baking and perhaps a movie before heading out to Liberty Fest with some great friends! Lots of food, fun, and fireworks! Its gonna be a blast! Life is such a blessing! We stress over little things day to day but then i sit and remember how blessed we truly are and that god will provide for all those little stresses.
I started on our wedding guestbook/scrapbook last night and I am so excited! It is coming along nicely and it is so much fun to look back at it all and remember all the amazing friends and family that came to celebrate with us that day! I'll post some pics as soon as i get them on my computer!