ChChchChanges!

Man how life changes and so quickly. If you had asked me just three weeks ago that this is what life would be like I would have never believed you. But you know what... I'm so happy... life is different and sometimes its a little scary especially when we're talking money but I couldn't be happier. I have more time for the things I need to do... I have more time for my family... I have more time to just enjoy life and not stress over things I can't control. Life is good! Is life perfect... no will it ever be... probably not... but life is good! And I am so Happy! Starting work this week and couldn't be more excited! I'm so ready for this next chapter in my life and can't wait to see what Blessings it will hold for me!! God provides in the strangest ways but he always provides! I know this is a short post and really its just my ramblings but It's my way of remembering that things always get better no matter how bad they get to start with. And while things are great now I know that there may come a time where I need this reminder so this is my way of documenting it all so that if and when I need that reminder I'll have it.

A light in the storm

I have been searching everyday for a light in the storm that is my life at the current moment. Everyday I have one small positive thing has kept me going and has given me some sense of positiveness. I know that God will always be there to help me through my toughest days and he will never give me more then I can handle but right now he is getting awful close. My job is kind of a mess and I am searching for a way out... hopefully it will be soon... however I'm taking a pretty good pay cut in doing this and while I know we can do it and God will provide it is terrifying!!! But I can't be unhappy like this any longer! Then tacked on top of all the stress and turmoil I feel from that whole situation comes the news about my grandma's cancer! I prayed and prayed and prayed for a positive outcome of that biopsy and of course as usual God had a different plan and it came back cancerous but not just cancerous a fast growing cancer that may cause her to have her bladder remove and could have possibly already spread past that. To say my heart is broken at this point is an understatement. My grandma is the most amazing woman I know. She has taught me how to be a strong christian independant woman. She taught me how to cook, how to bake, how to clean (well she tried LOL), she taught me how to work hard and how to turn away from bad situations. She has always been someone have admired so so much and just the thought that her years are numbered is killing me. I know I know she is grandmother their years are always numbered its a fact of life but it just seems so much closer now with the whole cancer thing. I know people beat cancer all the time and I know that she could go on a life 10 plus more great years but the fear has still gripped my heart and won't let go. I want her to be well and to be happy... I want her to be able to see my children when we have them. I just want more time... a lot more time! And with the job situation changing that is exactly what I plan to make... a lot more time! more time to visit before it's too late and I regret being too busy! But through it all I still try to find the light in the storm... I have an amazing supportive husband and an amazing family that I can always count on. And not to mention countless friends who have stood by me through so many things. These are all my lights in the storm that is my current life and I don't know where I would be if they were not in my life.

Family of Four

Well its official we are a family of four! We now have an adorable little puppy names Gibbs and he is so much fun! It's def. a challenge and probably helping prepare us for children and the joy of getting up in the middle of the night! But we are loving every minute of it! Bella is not the biggest fan of the new pup but she is adjusting and they co-exsist pretty well. She def. doesn't run and hide thats for sure so they are pretty entertaining. So our family of four is pretty fun and we are very blessed! It has been a challenging couple of weeks with work and sickness and a death in the family. But through it all I have done my best to think of all the blessings in my life and remember that this too shall pass and god has a bigger plan for us all. Well that is my short little update of our new family but I'll leave with you a picture of the newest member of our family and i'm going to get back to my nice relaxing saturday with my hubby and the pets!

Never Adjusting

So the husband has been gone since yesterday evening before I even got off work and won't be back until around bedtime tomorrow and then leaves again on Wednesday and i will see him Friday but really he'll be engrossed in video games at his convention so there wont be a lot of seeing him. I am not a happy camper!! And people keep telling me oh you'll get used to it after a few years of marriage it won't be a big deal yadda yadda. NO! I won't ever get used to my husband being gone. I dont like it not one little bit. I haven't slept alone since we got married and frankly a big house with just me and the cat is a little scary! And my husband is TERRIBLE at answering his phone so not only is he gone but contact is limited and I am just not a very happy camper about any of it. I know I'm a big baby but hey there is a reason I married someone with a super stable very limited traveling job so I didn't have to deal with this stuff... and what does he do goes and gets certified to scuba dive and signs up for video game conventions! BOO! Ugh Just ready for the this to be done and go back to normal... I probably wouldn't be as blah about it all if we had like seen in eachother in the past two week but yeah lets be honest its been crazy. Starting two weeks ago I had group on monday and didn't get home till bed, tuesday was the american idol concert so again not home till bed, saw him wednesday and thursday, friday was my jewelry party so he hid most of the evening, got to see him saturday and sunday but then monday came and he had scuba so didn't get home till bed, tuesday was the same thing, wednesday he was home, thursday scuba didn't get home till bed, friday left before I got off work and now here we are. Probably not as bad as it feels but when your used to spending every evening hanging out it really sucks when all this happens at once! So there is my whining... if you actually endured the whole thing and dont think i'm a complete baby I appreciate you. If you do well blah I dont care cause I miss my hubby!

What I want to be when I grow up?!?!

Yes I am 24 years old and I still don't have the answer to that question. I have thought that I had the answer several different times but alas I am once again at a loss for words when I think about this question in my current life. Lets start from the beginning... Once upon a time I went to this wonderful christian university which I wouldn't take back for anything... well this lovely university of mine decided that my .02 below their standard GPA wasn't good enough to student teach therefore flipping my life plan upside down. And since this lovely university had already emptied my wallet and then some I took the route of Liberal Arts and got out of dodge. All the while thinking maybe I dont want to teach... so in the mean time what have I been doing... Teaching... two years but still.... then about a month or so ago i decided that it was time that i see about pursueing my original goal of teaching again and I applied for my alternative certification... well of course my luck being what it is... I was told yeah your degree isn't good enough you're gonna have to do better... so now I'm back to the age old question of what I want to be when i grow up? I still think i want to teach but its the getting there that has gotten very frustrating. I thought about getting a masters... neither program i want will admit me without a teaching certificate... so I thought i'd go to a different university and see if they would accept most of my credits and let me student teach after a semester... they wont let me talk to anyone who can really answer these questions until I apply for admission (GAY). So now I've emailed my original university to see if they will write a letter stating I have enough coursework completed to classify as a Focus but then they want me to have two years experience in the field which makes no since cause I dont really know how you get experience teaching science without being certified to teach science... which brings me back to being at a loss for the answer to the question. How many roadblocks means that this is not God's plan, how many times to I try before i say hey maybe this isn't for me. If its not for me... well then what is? I think thats the scariest question cause honestly I have a clue what the answer to that would be. For the girl who usually has it all together... I've got nothing! BOO!

Couponing

So we decided today that we would but a sunday newspaper to see what kind of coupons are in those bad boys! Man were we excited to find so many coupons of things we actually use... I see all these coupons shows and blogs but it always seem to be about saving a bunch of money on things that i dont use or dont need 20 of so I wasn't really all about taking so much time to get coupons for stuff we dont need cause even if it was cheaper it seems like a waste of money but we were pleasantly surprised that we found so many coupons for stuff we actually use and stuff that we were running low on so we actually need!!! So we spent the morning clipping coupons from the paper and finding other coupons online and a little reading up on the local stores coupon policies and then it was off to the stores we went and when all was said and done we save just over $53!! And only spent $77! Now while this doesn't sound nearly as impressive as the people who save like hundreds of dollars when the spend nothing on a $300 purchase. But like I said all of the stuff we bought we will use in the near future so i'm pretty proud of us! And every little bit helps! So i think I'm gonna be a couponer from now on but it wont be nearly as intense as though people on TV!!!

Update on Life

Well it's been a while so I thought I would update this little blog of mine. Things have been busy around here between work and church and family functions and birthdays.... but it has been super fun. We spent the long holiday weekend in Nebraska with Blaine's family and had so much fun!! We got to spend some time with both of our little Nephews and just had so much fun soaking up all the love we could get. Both sisters are expecting and one is even expecting twins so we are very excited for the growing family!!! No worries my friend I am not making it three for three anytime soon... everyone is just gonna have to wait a while for a little Shannon and Blaine cause we are just not ready for that yet! We are however going to be getting a puppy pretty soon and we couldn't be anymore excited but we just had our little Kitty Bella fixed and declawed so were waiting to get her all healed up before we bring her a playmate! Work is still not the most exciting thing in the world for me but it pays the bills and I do love my kiddos! After a lot of talk this weekend about the whole alternative certification stuff I think I'm going to go ahead and apply for it... like Blaine's mom put it.... its $50 bucks that could change the rest of your life... so we'll see... Hoping to get lots of work done in the flower beds this week/weekend and maybe even get some more things organized before going into the attic. Oh the joys of owning a home...the list of things to do is never ending but it is ours and I love it!!!